10 + 1

Honestly I am scared but also apart of me is not.

I miscarriage last summer and the cause of it was due to stress on my body. I was going through a correctional officer training. Having to run miles, do sit up and push ups, and getting pepper sprayed.

I didn’t even know I was pregnant till after I got pepper sprayed because I noticed I wasn’t having any periods.

By that time, EVERY single day. I was discharging brown not knowing why. I went in to get my first ultrasound and there was nothing there.

So my boyfriend made the decision for the d&c.

Well this go around, everything was completely different. I had sore boobs, throwing up, always tired and etc. Mainly things I didn’t even experience with my first one.

Even though I’m not throwing up, I still get a little nausea. It’s been about a week since I’ve last thrown up or dry heaved.

But I feel pregnant. I’m enjoying it, even with the sickness. So I’m not going to dwell on the past and let it scare me. I know that is a man looking high while I’m sitting low. God got me 💕