My vagina huuuuuurts

I’m in such pain right now you guys, I know you guys are gonna tell me to get tested but I’m 99.99999999999% sure it’s BV and/or a UTI 😖😖😖 See you guys, I have this TERRIBLE habbit of emotionally overeating, so lately I’ve been eating whole-ass boxes of cookies n shit because my depression puts me in a “fuck it, you dont wanna live anyways, kill yaself” mentality, on top of that I’ve been taking steamy hot showers thanks to my allergies and snail/jellyfish immune system, so ik if I take any less than a hot shower I will catch a cold 😓😓😓 My pH balance is just all fucked up right now and it’s all my fault and I just want it to go awayyyyyy, I’ve been struggling in silence far too long just bc it’s an embarrassing and taboo thing to talk about. I just want some cranberry juice but I’m brooooooke, and too depressed to get my ass up and go to the store for it. Ik I shpuld see the gyno, but it’s the same damn thing as with the store- always wanna isolate n shit. I bailed on my gyno few months back bc of my depression n now my anxiety is telling me she hates me now for not cancelling and wasting her time n not to go back because she doesn’t wanna see me anyways, and that’s been taunting me like that for months, ever since I stood her up like that #rantover #offmychest