I’m visiting family far away for a few months and my husband isn’t going. I’m leaving on Saturday. My husband doesn’t care. He plays on his phone when he gets home until he goes to bed. And then says he’s gonna miss me. He likes the idea of me but not ME. I think my marriage is over. It’s just a bunch of things he does and doesn’t do that hurts me every day. I’m tired of worshiping the ground he walks on while I’m treated like a commoner. If he’s not gonna respect me why should I respect him?

He’ll beg me to keep trying and I’ll cave in and stay and then tomorrow or the next day it’ll happen all over again. Multiple times a week we fight and say we’re done but stay together.

I’m too afraid to be alone to leave, no one wants to be with a single mother especially people around my age (19). I’m too afraid of proving my family right that my marriage wouldn’t last. I’m too afraid to throw away three years together.