I feel alone

Last night my boyfriend told me he wasnt gonna stay at the hospital with me the days after labor. He did have a valid reason that i cant get mad about but it crushed me because we been talking about this for months and he promised hell be there. Now he said he would and he took care of the valid reason. Now i just dont want him there. I wanted me and our daughter put first for once. Hes been to none of my ob appointments he hasnt set up with me while im in pain...he even accused me of lying about how bad my braxton hicks hurt and continuously asked for sex and guilting me...i have depression and i told him i was crying and feeling down and he put someone elses needs above me needing him. I need someone thatll be there for me and hold my hand through life. I feel that me and our baby aren't in the priority we should be. I love him so much but i just want to push him away now and just not expect anything out of him anymore. I dont want to break up but i wish he could see how bad hes hurting me.