I'm going to write this post anonymously because I know many of you will have some not-so-nice things to say about how I'm feeling at this moment.

I am currently 11 weeks pregnant we try to conceive for 1 year straight nothing happened so then for the next year we kind of just play it around and didn't actually try. Then we ended up getting pregnant in November. I was super happy and excited but now I am depressed sad lonely sick mentally and physically I'm broke I want comfortable where I live I honestly just feel like I want to run away.

I don't feel like I'm in love with my fiance anymore and I know many of you were going to say you only feel this way because the hormones.

My depression is real my anxiety is real I want nothing more than to take a Xanax and drink a glass of wine right now I don't deserve this baby I don't deserve any of this I just want it all to end