So many women are supposed to keep quiet about their miscarriages and fertility issues. Does anyone know how hard that is when everyone around you is getting pregnant so easily and asking you about how the family is going when all you want to do is yell how depressed you are and how you just want answers or how you can't afford all this stuff because of insurance not covering and all these other people don't need to do that and then other family members that you actually confide it just tell you "good you need to wait anyway" or. "good you're too young you don't need kids" like shut the f**k up that's exactly what I was afraid of happening when I told someone so you just lay in bed crying wondering what the heck you're supposed to do because at one point you and your spouse sat down and had a plan and got excited and then all of this unravels and then people just tell you "oh it'll happen when you're ready" or "god will let you when it's your time". I'm so tired of hearing that. Sometimes I really just want to tell at people but it's rude yet when people say stuff to me that upsets me I'm the bad guy. I don't get it. Yes I'm young but I'm stable and I know what I want and my spouse wants the same thing. Why do things have to be so hard and why do I have to suffer in silence. This was honestly my last choice to post this because I literally have no one I can confide in besides my spouse which I love him to death but his sympathy isn't that good because the pregnancy thing won't really hit him till I get pregnant and he sees a belly because that's just how he is. My whole life is being around children. I work in childcare and I see the happiness the children bring to families. I just honestly don't know what to do or say anymore. Ready just to take some dishes and smash them on a concrete floor to get all my frustrations out.