There are two things I want so badly right now.

A change in career. Which an opportunity has presented it self and I want it so bad. I contacted the right people but now I just have to wait and hope it's me. It's also huge and a little overwhelming and I don't know if I can accept if they choose me. Need more details

And

A baby. I've been pretty passive for the last 2.5 years we've been married but I finally feel like it's something I really want. But my body is not cooperating and I don't think I can get pregnant (maybe without assistance anyway...)

I feel pretty down about it right now. (both things)