Sitting here on my sofa crying my eyes out.

Had a mc (with the operation) october 15th.

Finally got a positive pregnancy Test on saturday. It was Not a bright Second line But you could see it right away after seconds.. wanted to wait a week and test again.

So this morning i had a Little light pink blood when I wiped, so I took a second test and it didn‘t progress at all compared to the last one.

so I won’t keep this baby either, I think.

I‘m angry and sad, i hate my body because it is not able to give me my so wanted little baby. I‘m scared of the physical pain that it coming now and frustrated that everyone around me is putting little sweet babies into this world and I just can‘t. Why??

I would be a great and loving momma, I could do this, but why can‘t my body??