My water broke on 1.10.19 &' I gave birth to a beautiful little girl at 27 weeks &' 2 days.. on 1.19.19 she came out breathing by herself etc.. she my 5th child my first daughter😍😘 &' now she's on oxygen the lowest percentage &' she's not really tolerating her feedings.. so they haven't been feeding her! She weighed 2lbs &' 1oz! They have her under the Billey Light.. They tell me every time she's doing great &' that she's their best baby in the NICU😚

But I can't help but to cry &' feel like a failure because I couldn't hold her to term.. &' being away from her is killing me! Nothing takes my mind off of her! I'll watch her videos for hours &' just cry😭😢 I want my daughter here with me!

I think like what could I have done differently? I just pray &' cry &' watch her videos all day.. I don't know how to cope right now! I'm hoping it gets better, but I can't help to think I'll drive myself into depression! I calculated when she should be home.. I just can't ease my mind! I don't know what to do!

I'm Currently still healing from the C section! &' I don't at all regret any of the pain I'm enduring! &' I'll do it in a heartbeat ❤ just so my baby can be in my arms.. smh

Any other mommy's experienced this pain?

How did you cope?

When did your baby get to go home?

I have so many questions, &' no answers!

I miss her so so so much! I feel like I failed her!