January 10th your heart stopped beating. Little did I know I would carry you fourteen more days before I would hear the most heartbreaking statement.. “The heart has stopped beating, I’m so sorry.” I can’t remember ever feeling this kind of pain before.. its unbearable. I heard your heart beating, seen you do little wiggles on the screen and watched you continue to grow for weeks. I stalked the <a href="https://play.google.com/store/apps/details?id=com.glow.android.nurture">pregnancy apps</a>, reading others moms posts, joining in on groups labeled “due in august, 2019 babies & mom of 2.” I downloaded new recipes to eat healthier, researched ways to be a good mom of two & took belly pictures every night. There is no denying tonight we lay with heavy hearts, soaked pillow cases and red swollen eyes. Tonight is the last night I will ever have you inside my tummy but you will never leave our hearts. Keep an eye on your sister from up there. 💔