Anyone else still anxious?

Savannah

I seriously am still nervous and I'm not sure why. I had an ultrasound @5w4d due to severe cramps the sac was measuring on schedule but I had a small hemorrhage. I had an ultrasound @8w5d and the hemorrhage was healed and baby was measuring on target with a heart rate of 179bpm which is great! why am I still anxious to know if the baby is okay? I had 4 losses before I got my 6 month old son all before 9w and now I guess I feel like since its still too early to feel the baby I'm horrified of a missed miscarriage. I have another ultrasound on Tuesday @11w5d and I am kinda scared something will be wrong. Can y'all please send me prayers or good vibes for peace and a healthy baby. I'm as excited as I am scared and I hate that. Is this normal?