how can I make myself enjoy food again I used to struggle with over eating then eating really well then starving myself for 6 months before I got better and now I'm relapsing because I just think food is gross and it makes me want to vomit looking at it I want to be better I don't want to talk about it with anyone I don't trust anyone I have insomnia how can I actually sleep I'm becoming so worn out from little to no sleep recently 3 hours tops I don't have my phone in my room or anything I have anxiety which I have bad panic attacks which it's getting worse and I have depression it's not as bad right now I wake up feeling nauseous and when I get out of bed I feel light headed and dizzy when I stand up from the couch and randomly when I'm walking to the bathroom or kitchen etc no one in my family knows anything because I don't trust them I don't trust the doctor or therapists I want to be happy normal but I can't I feel like I'm loosing myself.