I'm still in love with my ex. Idk what is wrong with me. I'm married and have a child.. my husband doesn't deserve this. He's done so well for our family.. but we met in a odd time where I was still getting over my ex. He knows my ex, worked with him and was good friends with him. My ex lives in a different state though and we had a LDR a few years back and had a rather extensive history together.. we were friends for a long time, then we began to date one summer.. which he broke off unexpectedly.. and my now husband, happened to be at the right place at the right time.. and I thought he was the one..cause he was everything I'd wanted.. but.. my ex continues to linger in my mind. I have zero contact with him, I don't look at his social media profiles, I don't have any old pictures of us or messages between us, or anything like that.. but for whatever reason... Sometimes, I wish he'd show up out of the blue.. maybe it's for the closure, I never got? I used to think we were twin flames because we'd always find ourselves back in each other's worlds even though we were over 1000 miles apart.. I told my husband one night that I was just still heartbroken and I admire my husband for not telling me to get the fuck out. He just pulled me closer and told me it's okay.. idk how he can be so kind to me when I feel like this. My husband was there when my ex broke up with me.. infact he was the one who would try to help me get over it..which made me want to be with him. At the time he was chasing after my old roommate.. who also was friends with my ex, and I'd joke to her that if she didn't want him.. I'd take him.. and eventually that became a reality. I love my husband.. but I've never been in love with him..which hurts to say.. I'd do anything for my husband though and he in return without a doubt would do the same for me.. I just wish I could transfer these feelings I have for my ex to my husband and give him the love he deserves.