Before I got pregnant I know I suffered from depression and anxiety pretty bad. And both are so much worse now. I have so many more negative and scary thoughts that I have to constantly pray throughout the day. Truly scares me because this is supposed to be the most exciting time of my life, yet I’m always in a different world thinking the worst. I think everyone is way more excited than me and I can’t understand why this is happening. I get so much joy out of now I’m beating every week and my baby is progressing amazingly, but I still get those horrible thoughts. I can’t afford therapy until my Medicaid starts up again so what can I do?