So when I was 8, in Mexico my older cousin molested me until I was 11. I told my parents when we came back to the US, and they said they were going to tell his parents, but nothing ever happened. I went about and on my life and acted like I wasn’t affected by it. Every time I’m around him, I get anxious and I want to leave that house. Which is why I avoid going to my uncle’s house. Last time we went, which was winter break of 2018, my fear grew worse and worse now that I’m a teenager and I have this rage every time I see him. But I’m scared to be even near him. And when I’m here, I don’t like to be touched by my friends, when they touch my butt or boob, playing obviously. But I don’t wanna seem like I’m a butt hurt and I don’t wanna tell them about this situation. I get flash backs of those times of what he did to me and I start getting uncomfortable. I’ve cried before when I’m alone because of how he’s left me, I’ve become a closed person, I have trust issues and I don’t like hugging people, although I have some exceptions. I was wondering if y’all think if i have a mild form of PTSD, my friend said i have it, but I’m not sure. I thought PTSD had to be people who start panicking and crying like type of extreme to be that when it’s triggered. Can someone give me resources or anyone that has experience help me determining this? I haven’t realized how much my past has shaped me until now, and it’s making me more depressed that I already am. Please help me :( I don’t know if I can reply anonymously but if I can’t please provide alternate responses if you have questions. Example: “ do you ever ______? If you do, ______. If you don’t, _____.” Hopefully that made sense.