Last year I finally had gotten a new phone and I was extremely excited and filled with joy.

But now lately my mom has kept going through my phone and it’s just nagging me . I feel super anxious or paranoid because she might find out the vents or rants I typed on there about me feeling suicidal. I am scared. My mom loves and cares for me but she hates me when I am not happy. She tells me I can just runaway and be homeless or I am not allowed to do anything if I am upset. She doesn’t make me feel loved. She makes me feel frightened and feel the need to pretend to the point where I donkt know what the real me is anymore.