I recently got the news that I have herpes yesterday and I don’t know how to deal with it. I’m filled with so many emotions. I had been itching for a day or two and when I looked down there I seen something I had never seen before. I didn’t want to automatically think it was herpes but all my symptoms such as the vulvar ulcer, discharge, tingling, itchiness, burning while peeing, and swollen lymphoid made me believe I had it so I went to urgent care. 3 days later, which was yesterday, I got the call. I can’t help but to find myself even more depressed then I already have been. I already felt like I never was gonna find the one for me, but now how do I explain this and when is the right time ? I find myself thinking about my daughter and how she will look at me when she gets older. I don’t want her to think I was a promiscuous woman because of it. I have never had this happen so I can’t be exactly sure if i received it years ago or just recently and it really messes with my mind.

There are moments where I feel okay , but then I snap into reality about the news I just received. I don’t know how to deal with this plus so many other things that I have to deal with now.