Is it normal that I wasn’t scared in my 1st pregnancy, but I am this time? I feel like it should be the opposite. Baby 1 was 10.2 pounds at birth and I tore pretty badly. Recovery was long and painful. I couldn’t have sex until 8 months postpartum. I’m thinking all that is why I’m scared this time. Baby 2 could be bigger and some say he’s more likely to be. I don’t know. I’m just scared. I’m not that scared of the labor part; it’s the delivery. Pushing out #1 felt like I was splitting in two and dying (no joke. I was thinking as I was pushing and screaming that I was dying and would never meet my baby). The doctors are saying a c-section is fairly likely because if this one measures 10 pounds before my due date, they’ll try to convince me to do one right away. I’m scared of that too. I’d actually rather go natural again despite it all. I’m sort of just venting I guess, but comments are welcome :)