I just had my second son via csection and tbh I’m really feeling sad and all these other emotions. If I wanted 2 or 3 children I wouldn’t really mind but I’ve always dreamed of 5 children at least...I come from a midsize family so I love the idea of my own big family. I tried for a vbac this time and everything was going well but at 36 weeks dr told me baby weight is not going up as it should be in last month and there’s low fluid. I keep seeing people saying a uterine rupture is still a lot less likely than csection complications...

I’m glad baby is fine of course but I feel like now there’s no way of erasing what’s happened...I’m feeling kinda cheated out of normal delivery even tho it was my own body that wasn’t cooperating I guess.

I’m thinking of talking to a doula when the time comes. I wish I had hired one this time. I don’t know...I’m feeling really down about this whole thing. 😔