Dear crush

I know that you probably don’t even know who I am. You may match my name to my face but you don’t know me. I’ve never even had a conversation with you or even real eye contact with you. It really just snuck up on me. It hurts to know all of this while I can’t stop thinking about you. I dream of you feeling the same for me as I do you and for us to have one of those adorable relationships like my friends have had. It’s been a long time since I had a real crush and now I remember how much it sucks. It’s hard to think that even if you do know me you almost certainly don’t like me like that. I know I’m not the prettiest girl and I’m not a thing stuck like most of the girls you probably like, but if you knew me you’d know why I can’t excersize like I used to and why I get so sad in the one class I have with you. I’ve been through a lot and I feel like you’d understand me more if I could just talk to you and tell you. I know you’re not the most popular guy but you also aren’t an extremely reserved and shy guy either. Even to be just friends with you would make me so happy. All I want is for you to come in and save me, make me happier. Just a smile or a hello or a simple conversation could light up my day. I just want to know that you know who I am and maybe then it won’t hurt so much to know that I never stop thinking about you and how I get nauseous everyday before lunch where I can see you sitting with your friends from the line and I feel even more sick right before the class I have with you where you sit with your friends across the room as I sit with the people that make me sad and hurt and you could make the pain from them go away just by looking at me. I know this makes no sense and there is so much more I have to say but for now I’m going to take small steps and put this out there:

please just let me know you see me.