I'm scared, I think I have depression I haven't gotten it proven by a doctor but I feel taken over. I don't know what to do, some day I eat too much some days I eat too much, I can't get my work done in school, I can't focus. I'm falling behind....I wanna talk to someone but I'm scared I don't know how to open up and it's terrifying when I try. I want to talk to my parents but i don't know what to say! I want to talk to someone but anytime I feel confident I suddenly get drained and scared....I just wanna be ok...I don't feel like getting up but for some reason I do but i don't know why I do....it's so confusing and I don't know! It's scary....I'm scared....who do I talk to? I want so badly to explain to my mom but I just can't bring myself to do it. Throughout my life I've lost so much....family...friends...pets, my happiness! I lost myself and I feel numb I lost my way back to the light where everyone is ok, where everyone is happy, where I want to be...where do I go!? I'm ashamed of myself. I don't know who I am anymore. Everything is falling apart there's so much tension in my home...it feels my parents don't listen to each other, my brother has left me in the dark and for what? Bad habits!?.....why are you vaping....why are you doing drugs....why are you treating me like I'm nothing, I understand you have a girlfriend...but...I miss you....come back. Mom...why? Why are we moving....why did you spend our money on gambling...why is it now me to be the one to leave what is left of whatever friends I have....dad..I get it....I'm sorry your stressed..but....why did you turn to cigarettes......what happened to everyone....what happened to my family....what happened to my friends.....what happened to......me