I wish I could change

I know I'm insecure. I cant help but to think negative of myself and it just breaks me everytime. I was just at a bar with a friend for karaoke night. Two cute guys came around and I cant help to think that they were there just for my friend. They were polite and introduced themselves. I had to leave and I texted my friend saying it was.all thanks to tequila. I feel awful but I couldn't say that I felt like shit because nobody acknowledge me and actually thought I was pretty. I'm currently using invisalign thinking that straighter teeth would make me beautiful and appealing but it's me. I feel ugly, I'm overweight and of course Ive decided to get pink hair like if my ugliness wasnt as noticeable already.