Tired & Frustrated

So this is the second time this had happened, but basically I'm on day 84, late by 48 days. According to eve, I've skipped 2 periods. I already know I'm not pregnant. For others with PCOS, I'm sure you understand how frustrating it is. I'm wholly expecting a nice, painful ovarian cyst to show up at anytime from how extended this is.

Basically for those that don't know, I produce too much testosterone to ovulate and develop ovarian cysts from unshed lining. I'm my own baby deterrent.

I'm tired of waiting for either to happen- the red sea of murder or vomitting to kingdom come. I'm tired of wondering if I should give up and start planning for no children.

Most of all, I'm just tired.

Not really looking for advice, but just wanting to share my frustration. We won't go into fertility treatments, we can't afford that. Children will be by the grace of God if it happens. We may foster in the future if we're in a financial spot to take it on.