I don't know who else to talk to about this because I feel like most people think I'm faking it or that I'm just creating drama. But every month, without looking at the calendar, I know I'm going to get my periods 10 days later because of my PMS. Glow is now like an app I use to verify it. I have extreme mood swings, feel depressed with suicidal thoughts, dissociated when I feel horrible, bloat, have cravings and eat more, and have body aches. I do the most dumbest things on impulse, shop online carelessly, become heartless with people, and because I can never explain that it is because of my PMS I become more sad and insecure. I did a really stupid thing to my friend this morning. And I can't even get over how guilty I'm feeling about hurting him, and I feel helpless like I can't do anything about it, so I feel like hurting myself.

Idk how to deal with my PMS. Idk how to say that it is like a disease, which I'm not in control of. I just want to know please that if there is anyone else out there experiencing such issues?

Edit: thank you guys. I am going for therapy now and trying to cope with it with self care, exercise, love, awareness, and good nutrition.