10/11 DPO

Hey ladies, this is just a rant. Im TTC #4 for me 1 for Hubby, and we are on cycle 11. I was so positive this was it. Everything was timed perfectly, I has ssme symptoms i did when i was pregnant last time. I took a IC this morning and thought i seen the faintest line starting. Got super excited as Ive never had a line show on them. Thinking OMG finally!! Go get a FRER. Got the biggest BFN ever. Im so heartbroken. Im so frustrated. Its never taken this long for any of the others. i know everyone is different. But i was so sure... now im hiding in the bathroom crying because of how sure I was I even bought a onesie to tell him. Yes i know, stupid on my part. But i think Im just done. Its so stressful. Thank you for listening to my rant.. my hubby had twins that passed away 21 years ago and never had anymore. It breaks my heart that I cant give him one. Sigh. He would he such a great daddy... time for wine. Posted below is the onsie i bought for telling him, that will most likely never get used.

Here is the stupid BFN I didnt think i Would see....