Need some advice

I have been married for a little over 3 years now with 2 beautiful boys! We are a Christian couple and my husband is a preacher! I’ve been noticing a couple months after marriage that he’s not a little me perfect. He has a temper, doesn’t like to talk about how he feel so he balls it all up and put his tensions on me and has been like this ever since and then I have his family don’t like me and when they hear a inkling of an issue you husband and I are having they want him they are in his ears and telling him to move back to GA (when he left GA to move to FL for me). Mother in law secretly not liking me. Just drama for 3 years... the latest years .. we have been in 3 physical arguments.... (not disclosing what happened) and recently found peace for about 6 months happy and not arguing if we did we quickly fixed it... Until yesterday, he exploded with my family members (dad, mom and sister). He doesn’t want me disrespecting his family but finds it okay to disrespect mines. Long story short he of course takes all of his emotions on me and I just about had it. I come from a Christian back ground and don’t believe in divorce but I’m feeling so dead inside with him. I can never be truly happy. Always looking tip toeing when he will get mad again. He never really shows me he appreciates me. He’s all fun and games like a freaking big kid and I’m over it. I wanted to vent because I have bottling things in. It makes me a monster when in all actuality I’m needing someone to care about how I feel. He’s open to see a therapist but never really made moves in doing so... I don’t know if he’s just all talk or being really serious! Anyone in a similar situation like mines?