I feel like I’m not normal

I have anxiety but don’t take my meds bc I hate putting medicine into my body idk why. Anyways I always worry if I love my bf the way I shoukd bc other girls are clingy and I’m not idk if I’m just more mature or not but I also don’t like pda and sometiems I need a break from texting him 24/7 am I not in love or what is something wrong w me