i’m so confused

umm...so i masturbate and i really don’t want to but i can’t get rid of the urge so i end up doing it. honestly the thing that makes me so mad is i always end up doing it to lesbian porn. and i’m freaking straight. is this weird/normal? i feel so strange and not right everytime i do it but i haven’t been able to kick the habit although i’m working on it. i know it’s okay to do it but the whole porn thing.... i’m definitely straight but why do i end up watching lesbian porn? do other girls do this??