CAN ANY GIRLS HELP ME OUT??

How do you keep a secret when you’re drunk? I’ve had an abortion but nobody knows except my bf. I’m really afraid to get drunk because I might tell someone about it and I absolutely don’t want that to happen but I’m also not gonna go the rest of my life without a drink.

I’m legal and yes I can handle my liquor. Just wondering if anybody has had a secret they didn’t want anybody to know and still felt comfortable drinking