Miserable @ 35 weeks. **RANT**

This time last weekend I was laid up in the hospital with gallbladder issues and high BP issues. Everything was resolved and I got to come home (after promising to follow up with a general surgeon to have my gallbladder removed after my daughter is born).

They had told me they didn’t think I was going to make it full term, and I’ve had this intensely strong feeling I’m going to go into labor any day. They also told me I was dilated to a 2! Yay!

Fast forward a couple days, I start having contractions. Super strong ones that wouldn’t go away with drinking water or walking around. I go to L&D. I was basically told I was imagining the contractions (which I know for a fact that I wasn’t) and I’m only dilated to a 1 (which I had two nurses check and both said a 2 at my last hospital visit). Let’s just say I wasn’t too happy with my nurse that night. So now I’m just kind of afraid to go to the hospital. I’ve been having consistent contractions the last couple days since I got out of the hospital for the “fake contractions” and tonight I felt very very sick. Now my baby shower is tomorrow and I was worried that I would have to cancel because I thought I had the stomach flu lol

So I thought I was going throw up because it’s the usual nausea I get EVERY NIGHT. But I was having gas pains. So I decided maybe I could try to poop and that would help. TMI sorry!

And I sat on the toilet for 30 minutes with diarrhea 😭 and once I thought I was done with that, I had just enough time to flush before I puked EVERYWHERE.

Not to mention, it’s my fiancé’s first night on the night shift. Which means it’s the first night I have had to sleep without him in over a year and of course I CANT SLEEP 😭😭😭

We also have a dog that we just found we have to get rid of because he’s attacking everyone in the house and we can’t have him around the baby. I’m really sad about that because he’s such a big baby, but he needs a good home where someone will love him and give him the attention he deserves.

I’m miserable and just want to have this baby. Sorry for the rant, I just really wanted to vent because I can’t seem to vent in my own house without hearing about how much I bitch 😩🤷🏼‍♀️