First, I have already gotten a referral for a psychiatrist and am waiting to hear back to set an appointment.

I’ve had anxiety my whole life, but never really leaning over towards the OCD part of things. This is all new to me.

Currently, I’m starting to become obsessed with hand washing. I’ve washed my hands so many times in the last two days that they are red and cracked and occasionally get itchy and burn. I’m trying to get myself to apply a hand salve often but I hate lotions and things being on my hands as I tend to touch my face a lot.

It’s gotten to the point where I don’t want my fiancé touching me until I know he’s washed his hands. I stopped him from having morning “fun” with me because I was too ashamed to ask if he’s washed his hands first.

Last night, instead of having a panic attack like I normally would have given how I felt in the moment, I found myself disinfecting the dryer.

My anxiety had gotten worse before this started, because I was anxious about feeling disconnected from pregnancy.

This all started once I finally felt connected to being pregnant and my maternal side kicked in.

Is anyone else experiencing this? Or maybe have any ideas to either calm my mind or maybe find a positive way to work with it until I get into my appointment?

I feel so bad because I can see how I’m being irrational and I can tell my fiancé is confused by my new habits, even though he’s an angel and goes along with them. But I know it’s frustrating for him.