So for about the past 6 months I've suddenly become very scared of getting pregnant and having kids. I'm in a serious relationship and we talk about having kids together but more and more I'm terrified of it. When I start thinking about it I break down in tears but then I also have to complete opposite probably. I really want to have a family with my man and feel like if Im infertile then I'll be useless. I really want kids and I'm only 18 so it's not like anything will happen soon but then the wait for when I'm older makes me even more anxious and sick to my stomach, again leading to tears. My bf had told me he'll love me no matter what but I can't stop thinking about it and feel bad bringing it up over and over. I'm just scared either way and stay up late crying about it which sounds so stupid ik but I'm at a loss.

There are 2 things that I can think of that triggered this. One, the first time I had sex the guy told me he didn't have an STD and turns out he did and gave me clamidia and the Dr. (One of my mom's good friends) gave me this long talk about how I may be less fertile now and my chances will be slimer bc I had it for like 2 months. And 2 my mom is a labor and delivery nurse and tells me stories (bad and good) about the moms and babies. It scares me all the emergency situations there are, it's crazy.

Maybe I'm being dumb but the more I think about it the more I feel like it's not okay...

Does anyone else have a similar experience or know what to do?

Also my mom and I are NOT on good terms and she doesn't know Abt my bf. I don't need shaming I need help so please be positive.

Please help