Why is this happening to me?!?!

Been TTC for 7 long years, I have one child from a previous marriage and she will be 12 this month. I track my ovulation but I'm so tired and tears are all dried up just fed up. I tested all January and they said I peaked I'm still testing and now I'm peaking again??? I mean what's going on?? Seems like everytime I pee on a opk its freaking positive. So of course me hubbs BD but still so confused. I thought this was my month but I dont think so cause the strips all been saying I'm ovulating now and I feel just cramps and backaches ....just feel af will show up anyway. According to this app I'm 9 days away from AF and ovulating now and been ovulating for weeks. Idk but feeling like this every month is depressing. 😢😫😭😢😭