About a year ago, my daughters father and I went our separate ways... there was a lot of shit going on that I never thought would happen between us. But it happened and I’m moving forward. At the end of 2018, he randomly showed up at my doorstep practically on his knees begging for his family back and apologizing for everything that he’s done. I stood my ground and told him I didn’t want anything to do with him anymore and that I’m so much better without him.

Time goes by and I’m allowing him to spend time more with us as a whole family for the sake of our daughter. She loves her daddy of course. She loved it even more when all of us were together.

The more time I spent with him the more I saw him change for the better. He was finally taking initiative and actually being a DAD, not just a “father”. I don’t make excuses for anyone especially for him since he hurt me so much, but I know what he was going through at the time and I saw the lack of control he had in his life. I was just the unfortunate one to be taken the stress out on. Like I said, I am in no way making excuses for him.

Fast forward to February 2019. It’s a new year. And our relationship feels almost brand new. There was a lot of details that I left out as to what actually happened and the time period of my feelings of being “in love” gradually came back... but we’re here. In love again. Happy again. And I’m only praying that it stays for good this time. Every day I see how hard he’s working to patch things up and become the amazing father and partner he knows he can be.

Shame me or call me dumb for taking him back, but honestly there’s nothing in this world I want more than to have my little family together and happy. And as long as he’s putting in the genuine effort to get it all back then I’m willing to take the risk. Stay hopeful.