I found out when i was 8W5D my baby had stopped at growing at 6W4D. It was confirmed a week later when i should of been 9W4D. My 25th birthday that my baby had indeed stopped growing and still had no heart beat. After trying the medical management which failed miserably as nothing at all happened i was scheduled for a D&C

Today when i should of been 10W3D. Almost 4 weeks after my baby stopped growing i finally had my D&C. I found having my little angel baby inside me for so long more concerning. We were unable to move on or fully grieve as although the baby was no longer with us it was still apart of me and this broke me.

Surgery went really well and i was discharged 2 hours after waking up and stuffing my face like a pig as i hadnt eaten for so so long (thought i might of starved to death)

Tonight i took a pregnancy test. This is the last time i will see this for some time and i cant wait to see these two lines again when we have our rainbow baby in a few months time as we want some time together to heal and move on 🌈👶

Im not a very religious person but i do believe in god. So please god take care of my angel baby as clearly this was not meant to be for whatever reason. My dear angel baby. Mummy and daddy loved you dearly even though we didnt know you very well, we didnt know if you were a boy or a girl or what you looked like but you were OUR baby and thats all that mattered. Love you my angel. Sleep tight 😢❤️