I’m 5 weeks postpartum today. Still have stitches, still leaking fun fluids, still feeling not myself. My fiancé is definitely understanding, but he knows my check up is tomorrow and likes to bring up that “you can have sex again at 6 weeks.” He knows it’s not happening anytime soon, and he’s supportive.

But he’ll occasionally tell me he’s sexually frustrated or that he’d reallyyyyy love a bj. I just... can’t. I don’t know what it is. Maybe it’s the newborn, maybe it’s my hormones, maybe it’s the depression, maybe it’s my throbbing vagina- but I can’t bring myself to want to please him in that way.

I don’t want to suck it up and do it because I feel bad, because it shouldn’t be like that.

Am I a bad fiancé for not wanting anything to do with it right now?..