So.. me and my husband have two kids. A 2 year old and 5 month old. And he works at a factory and I work at my children's day care. I'm only still at the daycare cause it would be 500 every 2 weeks. For both kids but with me working there I get a 25 % discount and one free so its 250 every 2 weeks. We recently moved, with our friend as a room mate. And now that we've moved. Everything has changed. He yells at me more. If I tell him he needs to help me with the kids he tells me "You dont get to talk to me like that" he swears at me but gets mad when I do it back or when I ask him to watch the kids so I can shower he throws a fit about" fine I just wont relax or do anything I want to do. " and he just yells at our 5 month old for crying but dosnt do anything about it. Yes I'm breastfeeding but I always make sure shes full before asking him to watch her so I can shower or cook or clean. I've tried telling him if she cries try talking to her. Or laying her on the floor with her chewys and he just holds her and yells "your going to cry. I'm not running a mile for you to be quite." And just a few days ago i found out I'm miscarrying, I thought the test were wrong cause how thin the line was and how light it was but doctors confirmed. . And he got mad at me for wanting to talk about it because he dosnt want any more kids. He dosnt want me to go back to the doctors because everything we have to pay for our selves because I lost my insurance when I went back to work and my husband dosnt want to do the paper work to put me on his... I've tried telling him nicely "this is what I need from you as their father and as my husband. To not make me feel bad for needing help with the kids, and to try and be more patient with them, you come home and get on the xbox til bed...the kids need more interaction. And I know I need to work on handling my emotions, (mind you I've got clinical depression and bipolar, I am supposed to be on meds but can afford them everymonth)" he said "I KNOW IM SUCH A HORRIBLE FUCKING FATHER, IM A PIECE OF SHIT HUH?!" So I said, yes. Yes you are u til your ready to have an adult conversation. I wont be manipulated. We almost broke up after a year of being together because he was like this in the beginning, but he would throw things and break things as well. But we worked on it and then a year later I found out I was pregnant with our son

... I've been so upset and sad and angry lately. I've been unhappy. And I'm trying to talk to him about it but it just. dosnt work. I dont want these built up emotions I've got to ruin our family.. like my husbands spending our tax return on a motorcycle even though I told him no.. he dosnt even know how to ride, and he said "your not going to stop me from buying something that brings me happiness" mind you I let her buy a bass boat, 4 different trucks he sold 3, a 98 firebird. And he sold that too... like... WTF. I wanted to get my hair done for the first time in like 3 years. And he said well see... like I've let you buy SO MUCH unnecessary shit. And I cant even go get my hair cut, or nails done... I dont even get to pee alone... I think i would die of surprise at this point if i got to do somthing for me alone. I went to the store with just one kid and it was like a vacation.. I've considered going to stay with my aunt out of state for a while, and see if he pulls his head out of his ass.. but I dont want to take the kids that far. But I dont have family in our area... like literally no one. They're all out of state