In denial...

Jessica

My husband has had 2 semen analysis 6 months apart. Both zero. Inbetween the two he quit smoking, started taking multivitamin and eating better. We hoped the first test was a fluke. Well it's not. Dr felt for blockage and said that he felt nothing. So he ordered blood work. We have follow up Friday. AF is due today. No sign so far. Normally get her first thing in the am. Am I stupid for hoping there was one little swimmer that got through? I know I know I'm just hoping this is all just a bad dream. This has happened for months. When will I accept that this is it?