so, my beautiful baby girl arrived on Feb 6th. I stopped smoking LONG before my due date because I had already been visited by DHR for failing a drug test with my first born. They did a home visit and never contacted us again.

I genuinely thought I'd pass a drug test. Well, I did not. DHR visited me while holding my 7 hour old baby girl. They told me I failed at birth. They implemented a "safety plan" where my mother and father now have full custody of my newborn and my 15 month old. I am not even allowed to walk outside with them (technically). My husband was tested and of course failed, but also failed for a teeny tiny amount of opiates because he took a pain pill two days prior. My levels were so low they barely registered. My daughter's urine and meconium came back 100% clear of any substances. Not even nicotine.

Safety Plan still in place. I had to move in with my parents and my husband is only allowed to visit his NEWBORN DAUGHTER for 3-4 hours a day and has to be out of the driveway by 9 pm or "else". Our caseworker has been very reassuring saying we are the most cooperative parents she has ever worked with, it'll be no time before we get our kids back, etc. But I am very weary of this. They want us to go to individual counseling, marriage counseling, and parenting classes for 12 weeks before considering letting us be alone with our girls. Our girls were both born perfect and in perfect health. My 15 month old has never been sick. Not even a runny nose. They told me if I breastfeed my daughter, I could be charged with a felony for knowingly "putting THC in her system" even though now, one week after giving birth I am testing completely clean. They have 90 days to conclude their investigation before having to go to court.

My family has been split up. I can no longer sleep next to my husband. He has missed out 15 month old take her first steps and is missing out on the newborn stage of our baby girl. We are GOOD parents. What makes this worse is my Ob encouraged me to use marijuana during my first 2 trimesters because I could not gain weight and could not hold food down. I couldn't even hold down my nausea meds.

This has been traumatic for me and my babies. Not only do I miss my husband like CRAZY but I am 25 years old having to ask permission from my parents to even so much as run to a grocery store or go have lunch with my husband and even if they say yes, I have to make the choice to leave my babies behind. I feel like I've failed my kids. My heart is shattered and torn because this is time we will never get back. I will probably never ever look at marijuana again for the rest of my life. Alabama is quite literally one of the worst places on the planet. I Just want my family together. We should be cuddled up on a couch watching a movie, but I am alone in my old bedroom while my babies sleep in my parents room and my husband is 30 minutes away from us. This mixed with my afterbirth hormones have made me extremely depressed and suicidal. I don't know if anyone on here prays but if you do, please pray for me. Please pray I get my family back SOON. I can't do this for 3 months. I am surprised I've made it an entire week. I will just die if I don't get my family back together. PS, Pictures are to show off how absolutely beautiful and happy my sweet girls are. Mommy and Daddy NEED their girls back. I have no purpose without them.