My husband and I lost our first baby in December at 16 weeks. On January 27th our doctor said if we wanted we could start trying again. She said the earlier we tried would be best as I still have a bunch of hormones in me from my last pregnancy. We thought maybe we would try in March if we were ready. We’re in grief therapy and most days we’re excited for more children but some days were not sure.

I’m 3 days late. I’m freaking out.

I’m out of town and the store didn’t have a test. We go home tomorrow and I will use one of the ones we have there. I’m just not sure how I feel about being pregnant again because I’m still grieving my last baby who I have ultrasound pictures of and have his ashes. I want him back.

Is this normal after miscarriage?