Waiting for this to pass

I know us breaking up was for the best and we just wanted different things out of life. We broke up with a good conversation and no drama. We both spoke our peace and we hugged goodbye. We didn’t shut the door on a friendship but have no idea how we are gonna be in the future. We saw each other twice this week at work and it was just awkward but not super awkward. I wonder if this is hard for him like it is me? We talked everyday for months and now we went all week and hardly talked. I know it’s for the best but how is it so easy for him? Is it easy for him? He was such a sweetheart when we broke up and didn’t say or do anything to hurt my feelings. Running into him he did react and we tried so hard to play it cool. How is it the one person you know you need to distance yourself from is the one person you can’t stop thinking about? Honestly what else makes me sad is there gonna come a day when I’m over this and I won’t notice that I went a week without talking to him. But right now I just wish I could turn my feelings off. Even if I knew he missed me and we talked about it, it wouldn’t do us any good. Cuz nothing would change.