Disappointment...

Carrie

Is anyone else in & out of L&D with consistent 2-3 minute apart contractions that are doing NOTHING ?!?! I know my baby is ready, I know I am ready. My cervix is failing me yet again & I am so disappointed in my own body & I have NEVER been this disappointed. It’s been 3 weeks now that my body has been doing this. I cry every night because there is nothing I haven’t tried. I have even taken EPO to help soften my cervix so it can change. I have never felt more disappointed in my own body as I do now. My doctors refuse to give pitocin or cervadil until I am at least 3cm and I am stuck at 1cm. I have done cervical massage, acupressure, massage, hot bath, hot shower, pineapple, kiwi, lunges, walking, dancing, squatting, sex which makes me puke so I have tried that. I am a full time nursing student & my instructors & the facility I do clinicals at feel I am at risk even going to school anymore but my doctors won’t help me & idk what else to do for myself. So I keep crawling out of bed each & every day doing the best I can in school & life so I don’t get to depressed. I need help, I need this baby out of me so that I can be me & happier, & actually get the full education I am paying 10k a semester for. I am just so disappointed in my body & myself.