Doubting not having another 😕

Sooo, I never thought I'd say this but....I'm so sad of the thought of not having that "baby feeling" anymore. Like watching them be born, all their milestones, etc.

I have 3 and I always thought 3 was a good number. But, as I looked at my 6 month old the other day I was so sad thinking "I'll never have this moment again".

I never wanted more kids after 30 let alone I feel that I wouldn't be able to provide or struggle to provide for more children or take away from my children now. I feel like even though another one would be "nice" I wanted to "start my life" and really do things with my kids getting older vs "I'm pregnant and can't participate" or "let's what for your brother to be alittle older".

I have mixed feelings. But, I'm not sure if that will go away or I'll regret it later not having more or having another and feel so stressed how hard it will be even MORE having 4.

Advice or thoughts ladies?!