I’m sorry Mom, I love you

This being my first pregnancy and being able to feel my baby move inside me, all the love and longing I already feel for my baby makes me want to apologize to my Mom all over again. I was a really rough pre teen and teenager, I was sassy, full of attitude, I said a lot of really mean and hateful things to her. Obviously I’m an adult now and our relationship is great, I already know she loves me and she knows I love her but being pregnant now makes me fully realize how much my Mom must have really loved and adored me before I was even here, she grew me inside her and felt my first movements, she brought me into this world when she didn’t have to and gave me everything I ever needed in life and I seemingly turned on her at a young age. And Ive reached a whole new level of feeling horrible about it. It makes me appreciate her just that much more. She never gave up on me, she was always trying to be understanding, and she never stopped loving me even tho I was a little monster. I tried telling her all this and she said ‘Hunny, I wouldn’t have you any other way. I love you for being you’. I fucking love my Mom.