I’ve had depression for a good 5 years but each day it has gotten progressively worse I’ve had times where I’ve said goodbye to everyone and written my note but ended up crying to sleep before I could ever do anything I wanna get help but when I do they say “ I’m going through a phase where it’s a part of growing up” right okay but I have cut my self but I promised someone I would not my parents never realised that I ever did stuff which would harm myself I have scars to prove it but they think I just caught it by accident ..... what the fuck man like I said I am very dark I never think Positive when they say but you seem happy all the time ... maybe that’s because I put a fake smile on and pretend that everything in my life is 100% I have no issues nope I’m the opposite I argue a lot with people when it’s never my fault but they always seem to put the blame on me I cut myself out of peoples lives nobody cares they just assume I’ll be okay tomorrow when it’s worse as each day as it comes not sure what else to do but to run away from everything got a little place I can happily go to for as long as I want to clear my head but I’m scared for someone to find me I just can’t go on I don’t know who I am anymore