So the other day I posted about going through depression, well today is the day I’m fighting it ! I’m struggling just a little bit but I’m not going to let it take over me , last night is the first night in a week that I’ve been able to go to sleep before 5am , I went to bed last night around 11 yes I won’t up at 4 this morning and been up all morning but , the good thing about that is I was able to clean house , I got up and fought through me just wanting to sit and lay in bed and do nothing I got up and cleaned instead ! I’m proud of myself too ! And today is also a good day cause I’m going to go out and go to the store and stuff I haven’t left my house in a week , so imma throw my face on and do my hair and go out with my man ! I’m trying so hard to fight through this I still have my moments I just want to crawl back in bed and not do nothing at all , I have broken down today I’m not going to lie , when I got up and started cleaning I turned my music on and then went room to room looking to see what I need to do . ( ps. I live with 4 other people just note that just cause I haven’t cleaned in a week doesn’t mean it hasn’t been done ) it’s just I’m the only woman . So I’m the only one that details when cleaning lol . But anyways I as I was going from room to room I broke down in tears cause I was like I should have this done through week , I told myself I can’t keep this up I have to stay strong . And the reason I say that is cause my mom left my brothers and dad , I have a 14 year old brother and a 17 year old brother and yes I understand they are old enough to understand what’s going on and everything, but I still feel they need a woman figure in their life , I try to stay strong for them cause I know they need me more than anything . But sometimes it’s hard to because I have to be a sister / mom to them and i hate it just for the fact that I shouldn’t have to be more than a sister to them , my mom should be around and doing what moms do ! But anyways I have wrote enough today and I’m so off topic ! But lol I’m fighting through it today and for now on !! #stayingstrong 🥰