A BIT RANTY....SORRY. 😓

My son is 17 months old, and my husband and I are trying for our second child. I dealt with some pretty serious body dysmorphia while pregnant (that began pre-pregnancy) that prevented me from really enjoying it and just embracing my belly. I was terrified of not bouncing back and even more so of going through labor. 😖 I did end up actually having a pretty terrible labor with my epidural wearing off and feeling everything and tearing into my labia...but that’s neither here nor there. I bounced back super quickly as well, thank God! Anyway what I’m getting at here is that I’m not afraid of any of that -right now- and so for me, I feel like we should jump on trying again now. Plus, we both don’t want to be “old parents” like we felt ours were and don’t want our kiddos too far apart in age. Well so I thought...last night while talking with my Dad about it, he suggested we wait so we don’t “throw Malakai (our son) off his throne”. He said that once a new baby comes, he’s going to have to share love and attention and that it’d be better to wait until he’s at least 5 or so when he can understand it a bit better. I mean it made sense to me and the thought of my boy feeling like the forgotten child kills me. My son is the happiest baby I’ve ever seen, and I have 10 nieces and nephews! I don’t want to ruin that! He reminded me of my two oldest brothers who are only a year or so apart and how the oldest has a case of the forgotten child like nobody’s business. I don’t want that for my son, so now I’m torn on what would be best for our family.

Would love to hear any experiences, but particularly from fellow people who have kiddos so close in age! How are things going??

Also here’s our son....just cause. 😍