The last month and a half I've felt so gloomy! And old! And lame! I love my baby so much, he is so so perfect! It still hasn't stopped the way I feel about myself :( my s.o. has been trying to be encouraging through this time with me but it's been rough for both of us. He has 2 kids already and it's been kind of a shock to my life. A little more than a year ago I was single, no kids, carefree, too much time on my hands. Now I'm locked down with 2 kids and a NEW baby and I'm not sure how to process it slowly, I definitely didn't ease myself into this life. But still!! On the other hand I love this life, I love having a little big family, I feel like this has been my purpose all my life, to be a mother ♡ it wasn't until like a week ago that I started to feel myself getting my groove back, I just have to constantly remind myself, things take time, everything is temporary, and I survived childbirth 😄