12+3 today and I’m just feeling so down. Baby’s father and I aren’t together anymore and when I found out I was expecting he moved 1000 miles away to “help his mom with her divorce” and that he wouldn’t be gone long. that was almost two months ago.. today I found out she’s not even getting a divorce anymore and I’m going to be alone this entire pregnancy just cause he doesn’t want to be with me anymore. It’s both our first child we were together for 5 years prior. He says he feels bad and feels like “shit” that I’m alone.. but he has no plans of coming back or anything until the birth. My heart hurts so badly how can you not want to experience the pregnancy and just be okay with missing everything.. especially your first child.. I feel so broken and my heart hurts so badly for this baby.