Okay so the guy I like (I feel like I'm, falling in love with him and I'm not happy) has a girlfriend and I'm happy for him because he's one of my really close friends and he has no idea I like him. I liked him a month or just over a months before they started dating. I want to tell him because him not knowing absolutely kills. They only see each like very 2-3 weeks and he's kinda thinking of dumping her because of it.

But whenever he talks about her it makes me so angry at him and myself. It's not his fault. He doesn't know I like him.

I'm just so scared and it just makes me want to cry all the time.. And tbh... Harm myself. Its so selfish.

I want to tell him but I juts have no, idea who to even bring up the fact that I like him let alone possibly love and I don't want to lose him or make it awkward.

I get so mad at him that sometimes I want to block him in everythibg I have him on and, never talk to him again but I can't just do that and I also don't want to because of how close we are and. I'm just so goddamn confused and annoyed and I just really need help...